Wednesday, July 15, 2015

A Personal Note (Why There's Nothing Exciting Here Lately)

I'm going throw in a personal update here, because at least Taryn has been missing my real blogging, and it's something that I would like to find more time to do.

Part of the reason for the silence has been the recent madness with my real life (living situations, people, jobs, etc.) and subsequent total lack of time/energy for blog-writing; it may or may not be apparent that I put a significant portion of energy into these posts, so after I work for upwards of twelve hours a day on very little sleep, I'm barely up for living my own life, let alone sharing rants and observation in a remotely coherent manner.

Part of it is also that there is just SO MUCH that I want to rant about, that it becomes a little overwhelming. I used to have a sticky note on my desktop that had blog ideas on it, but that's either disappeared, or been deleted, which is fine, actually, because it was painfully obsolete anyway.

But! I have lately been settling into the new rhythms of my life a little bit more, and have been trying to recommit myself to my arts and the things that actually fill and sustain me and give me pleasure.

Friday, July 3, 2015

I'm on Redbubble!

Guys! I officially have a Redbubble store!
So you should check it out and buy some stickers or something, and (as always) let me know what else you'd like to see. I have a whole mess of plans of in my head waiting to be drawn.
Also, keep your eye out for commission info soon, because I'm finally working on putting that together for you too.

Sunday, April 5, 2015

An Open Love Letter

I sometimes think that I don't let you know how grateful I am for you, even though you're such a huge part of my life. So I decided in the pale, predawn hours of this morning that I would finally tell you that I love you, write the words and really think through what it is that you mean to me.

Leaving you is hardest part of every day, and I look forward to coming back to you for hours after; sometimes even knowing that I'll see you later that day, I look forward to tomorrow and throwing myself at you all over again.

I don't always realize it, but you are one of the most important constants in my life. Every night that I have to spend without you is uncomfortable at best, and sleepless at worst. It's only when I don't have it, that I realize how comforting you are, how you are always waiting for me with open arms, willing to hold my blood, sweat, and tears, every emotion, every mood, day or night, with nothing but rest and safety for me.

You catch my tears and warm my coldest nights.

The trust that I have for you runs so deep that I've never even had to consider it. I place myself at your mercy at my most vulnerable moments, when I'm exhausted, or euphoric, or lost, and you never disappoint me. It has never once even entered my mind that you might not be there, or that I might have any cause to hold back with you; you've seen every side of me, and the intimacy we have is so profound as to be casual and thoughtless.

You carry my dreams like newborn chicks, cradling them gently for me until I can come get them, keeping them safe.

Bed, you are my rock, and I will love you forever, no matter what changes we both go through, no matter where you happen to be, as long as I can envelope myself in your softness at the end of the day, as long as I know that you are waiting for me, I can face any morning.